Reently I was sitting in the Marriott's restaurant in Indianapolis after a non eventful flight from Tampa and a "nail-biting" trip in a cab from airport to hotel. I was decompressing after a bout with fear as we traveled through the dark in a strange city on a route that was taking considerably longer than our assumption. I am not a fan of surprises, I admit it. Since a child I have fought many fears and lived through years of nightmares. Always when I think I have FINALLY grown beyond this thorn, that the enemy pricks me with when I least expect it...there I am again, that 5 year old, shaking with fear. AS I peered deep within my heart, one more time..I recognized this fear. It was like hundreds of nightmares I've experienced.......always in a car.....driving, driving, driving...terror gripping my heart...not able to find my way.
This morning as I revisited my journal entry after returning home....I was struck with these thoughts: "Driving in circles (thinking in circles- sometimes to the point of panic/anxiety); I've been so busy "looking for", "planning" MY way..that I'm prone to wander out of "my own lane" (the narrow path) and find myself outside of the Lord's protection. Simply put - YOU, Jesus, are "The Way"
.....The Right Way........
......The Best Way.....
........The Only Way.......
to joy, contentment and peace.
These thoughts landed hard on my heart and I heard my Savior say - "Why must you search for the right, the best, the only ??- I AM all of these rolled into one... right beside you, every minute. If you would "Be still and Know that I am God....." (Ps 46:10) Then you will be able to sense my breath on your face my daughter and the sound of your heart beating in tune with mine. Remember, (as John Newton penned ).."you once WERE lost, but NOW are FOUND. I AM your destination! Stop looking around! Look at ME!!!
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of a sound mind" 2 Timothy 1:7
With head bowed and a heart refreshed I'm fixing my eyes on Jesus and thanking Him for this lesson taught through my fears.
Judy
something like that once happened to me, i was trying to get to a party, but got lost and this was before cell phones, and somehow i ended up in a rough neighborhood and i was praying please don't let me get lost when i looked up and saw that said "terminal island" and it gave me the creeps... i said, God, i thought i asked you not to let me get lost... and clear as clear, i heard Him say:
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that calmed me so much, that then i was able to figure out how to get back to the road that would lead me to the place i wanted to go... since then, i have remembered that He is with me, and how can i be lost when He is with me?
i truly enjoyed reading your post... thanks
Thanks for reading and following my blog.
ReplyDeleteThanks too for sharing your fear experience and how the Lord spoke to your heart.
Be blessed today!
Judy
thank you!
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